The camp was fun

This is my first time joining bsgc youth camp.. The first day to me was very scary... I totally dont know anybody.. most of the people i saw them before [my cousin is in bsgc] that's why i saw them before.. the second day is still ok... cuz i know some people... is really fun and nice that hang out wit eu chung.. two of us keep bully each other... when we were playing a game call 'pegs' i saw vincent and nicolas come to the campsite[not really a campsite is a very big house] i was so supprise and feel bit happy cuz somebody can accompany me... ^^v the 3rd day was better.. cuz i know more friends... ^^ i'm glad to know all of them.. but i also feel left out.. cuz i was playing wit eu chung but i feel that rachel like dun like or what i have no idea.. what can i do?? but eu chung just put me a side and talk to rachel.. i just stand/sit there.. but no longer alone cuz vincent come again... he ask me something.. i have a felling that is not a really good thing[i'm not sure to say is good or bad] so we sit down and talk.. but e keep lik dont want to say.. so i just run to eu chung and rachel there and disturb them.. eu chung get scratch by a girl abd he dont know is who [dum dum] and his hand was bleeding.. ouch* is really hurt... but i sitl bully him.. [bad girl] ok i admit that.. so no longer i run back to vincent there and he tld me that he break up wit joan already... oops... hold on.. why he tell me this?? i was a little bit supprise.. so after that he said what happen and blah blah blah.... after that he ask me do i still like him... my goodness.. how i know i have no idea.. cuz i enjoy being single.. but sometimes dont lar.. so he gave me a necklace.. so i did wear it.. if bufford saw this his going to be very angry.. haha.. dont care.. now i'm just a student and next year is my SPM year.. i dont wan to make all this thing is my worried list... Spm is already a stress to me.. so ok.. the final day... is was really really fun.. i know more friends.. that ken jiu [lap sap man] is realy really funny.. yeah another funny friend.. after that of cuz i go and get all their contacts and email add.. eu chung said to one table of people that he is not going to give his phone number to anybody.. but he saw me and he ask me wan his phone number onot.. haha... when they are waiting for bus ken jiu ask who am i [ask eu chung] then i told him my name and eu chung said i'm his sis.. another brother that very 'sayang' me.. now i only have three brothers.. 1st is zhong yung 2nd is cheech 3rd is eu chung.. ^^ i like when they are rubbing my head.. is really nice.. so hope that me and them can keep in touch.. ^^v

I have no idea what are you talking... dun act lik a hero infront of me...

Today in church that time, suddenly m phone got msg so though was my friends sms me… but when I see is Vincent send a msg to me… He wrote [Hey… can you wait a while after te service? I dunno you… but I think I’ve been a bad boy not talking directly to you lately…] I totally no idea why he send tis kind of msg to me… I just reply him ‘har?’ he reply [You just wait a while la… I know you are angry with me over something…] tat time I lagi blur… what is he talking man… wat he wan??? So I did wait… but he didn’t walk to me… I though he wanted to say something… I waited so long n michelle started to ask go n eat breakfsast… hey come on la… ask ppl wait but him self didn’t show up… what he wan!! After tat another msg came… [I know you’re angry about what I said yesterday… All this while you’re angry with me rite…] hey of cuz I’m angry with you ar!!! Like that say my fren leh!!!! What do you mean that ‘Wah!! find a so old one!’ he send another 1 come… [So now giving you a chance to say wat you wan to say la… instead of telling others…] wah… like this also can la… I only tell michelle ar… what do you mean it oh!!! So I told him I mind that yesterday how did he said my fren… n he reply [Mind? Meaning it’s real is it? Why mind leh, you tell me…] hey… you are hurting my fren leh… I mix with wat ppl not yr business rite?? N he reply [You know why I broke up wit you? It’s your temper a… I dun think you know the reason before loh… Oh? I got no motive… but I really wan you to change your attitude… if not why do I give you three years? Or you already forgetten about it…] hey… you wan me to wait 3 years ar?? Oh ya… my temper??? Ok I admit it my temper is not good but I addi can control it…but when I saw him or his msg I can control… I hate him… HELLO~~ if a guy ask u to wait 3 years will you?? And is he couple wit other gals… he reply [I didn’t say you cant a… you wan then find 1 la…even three years I’m not sure we will be together a… if your temper never change your hot temper… If not, your future partners wont be happy… It’s not for me ok? It’s for your own good…] excuse me… wait that’s mean wont find another 1 lar!!! If wan then wait 4 what oh??? N I don’t need this kind of ‘hero’ act stupid… *@$%!#@%$… and he wan to give me something he go n pass to gal n ask her pass it to me… hey you just sitting next to me leh… why you need to do that leh… and he reply [Ok la… Since you said that… Then nothing to say la… Ok… Have fun… Then meaning dun receive my souvenir meaning no frens wor… Like that also you wan is it?] to me last few month I wil think alot that should I remain be frens wit you… but I wont think so much now… and he reply [Ok… Then you like la… Since you rather dun even see me… Up to you la… Sorry for disturbing…] oh ya… so I ended up me n his 5 years friendship… I really angry with you… Even I hate you I also don’t care… cuz you is the 1 that hurt me till like a stupid… If a gal hurt you like that will you still be nice to that gal?? I know that you kena hurt before… but you should not put at me ar… Alot of ppl will think that wat a waste cuz of like this small matter then end the friendship… but to me is not a matter… his friendship to me is not really important… I mean it… I can treat him as I just know him in friendser… but when we meet I wont talk to him except for playing captain ball… that’s all I can do… until now I still can remember how did he hurt me… I don’t care m I bad or what… if I’m bad then how bout him??? All the things I write here is true… Vincent… if you see this you wan to say what I don’t care… cuz you didn’t know that how I suffer in kl… I cant sleep for few months… and only four of my best friends know… as you know a student cant sleep in few months is how suffer de thing it is…


2/11/2007

Should i do that?

我最近不知为什莫一直发呆…我有想过一件事＋我有点点自卑的…那是我觉得自己不适合和婷，怡一起做好朋友…因为我苯啊…基本的画画都不会…她们都画到很好…我是不是不应该加入她们的［好朋友］里呢？
我最近也在暴肥…无伦有吃东西或没有都在肥…我也发觉自己崩溃了很久的…只是没露出一幅伤心的样子…　我不想让他们担心＋不开心…但如果有和我谈心事的那就一定知道我发生了什莫事…可是不是和很多个知道…当我需要朋友时他们都不在…
6/11/2007

what a guy that always wear the same shirt wit me...

最近我过了一些对自己来说很难的日子… 可是还是过了吧… 我和婷聊了一些东西..
我最近和一个男子一直撞穿同样的衣服.. 一开始我很不喜欢可是我们已撞一个月的.. 现在好想和他撞衣服.. 他是我钢琴老师的侄儿.. 我从来没想过他和我以前男友同名.. 但他当然是好看过我以前男友啦… 他弹给我听得第一首歌是周杰伦的珊瑚海… 我很喜欢那首歌… 但可惜我都不认识他… 哈哈哈哈…
22/10/2007

i cant believe that.. is stupid...

今天和johnathan [vincent的好友之一]聊天...他跟我说了vincent的东西…他还说vincent有女友的那女子是joan… johnathan说他们很害羞＋尴尬…　说真的johnathan告诉我的我想回以前和vincent一起的时候他跟我说过那女子很像我的＋那女子暗恋他的啊…我又想到vincent会不会是那她来做代替品…如果是我不会放过他…　因为这些不可以拿来玩啊…　
21/10/2007

I did not did it... Dont Blame Me!

今天看了Loke Vincent 的friendster…　我快给他气死…他说很讨厌乱发脾气的人还有乱发他脾气的人.. EXCUSE ME! 你在说我吗? 我几时有乱发你脾气？是你乱说话… 你懂我在这里发生了什莫事吗? 为什莫你只会想你的是就重要而我的就不是？你每一次误会我然后发我脾气那有怎样算呢？你只会赖我你有想过你自己也是这样啊…我不明白为什莫你当初要和好...而说分的也是你…我到现在还不能愿谅你…我当初和你分开的我不要和好是因为我不想再这样喜欢你…现在好咯连朋友也不能做的啊…你开心啦!
9/10/2007

每一件事都有它的代价的...

我 有 一 次 失 去 一 个 很 好 的 朋 友 可 是 有 一 个 对 我 很 好 的 男 友.. 可 是 他 要 和 我 分 开 了.. 他 还 说 因 为 我 幼 稚 所 以 要 分 开... 这 是 一 个 很 烂 的 借 口.. 很 不 明 白 他 为 什 麽 要 这 样... 我 还 笨 到 要 等 他 三 年.. 觉 得 很 白 痴... 所 以 啊 我 决 定 放 弃 的... 做 好 自 己... 不 想 浪 费 我 的 时 间.. 过 了 不 久 因 我 有 回 我 的 好 友 的.. 我 觉 得 是 当 你 有 什 麽 就 应 该 珍 惜.. 不 要 等 到 失 去 的 才 来 后 悔... 因 为 我 自 己 也 有 后 悔 过 所 做 的 东 西...
我 也 承 认 我 很 大 小 姐.. 我 很 想 当 公 主 可 是 只 是 在 我 自 己 的 世 界 才 可 以 实 现... 我 有 试 过 很 爱 一 个 人... 可 是 结 果 是 自 己 跌 的 很 伤而 以... 我 不 敢 太 对 一 个 人 很 有 信 心.. 因 为 我 被 骗 过 啊... 有 时 爱 情 真 的 很 烦... 该 爱 的 不 爱, 不 该 爱 的 却 很 爱 他.. 所 以 我 自 己 一 个 人 也 没 问 题 了... 对 于 朋 友 我 都 不 知 要 怎 样 讲.. 有 两 个 对 我 很 好 的 朋 友 而 以.. 其 它 的 我 看 只 是 挂 名 吧... 当 想 找 个 朋 友 陪 没 有 一 个 陪 我 的... 所 以 什 麽 都 靠 自 己 是 最 好 的...
有 朋 友 说 我 像 拉 拉 妹 可 是 我 不 理 但 当 他 说 到 我 想 要 当 的 梦 想 我 就 会 很 生 气 所 以 就 这 样 和 我 另 一 个 朋 友 吵 架 的.. 他 会 不 爽 那 我 也 会 啊.. 有 时 我 会 很 好 欺 负 可 是 不 要 酱 过 分 啊 ! 当 我 骂 你 们 是 你 们 又 生 气... 那 你 们 以 为 我 不 会 生 气 的 吗 ?? 不 要 酱 天 真 啦... 一 个 人 的 忍 耐 有 限 的...
--> 你 们 一 定 要 祝 福 我 可 以 放 弃 他 哦..